I'd like to change my mind. Some of you may be surprised to hear that because you know how long it takes me to select what to wear in the morning or to decide what's for dinner. I'm pretty good at changing my mind on these less important things, but when it comes to the important things, it's difficult to set my mind right.
What I mean is that I would like to be healthier and make healthier decisions. My mom is going through her second fight with cancer, and I keep reading about healthier choices helping to prevent or decrease your chances of getting cancer.
This leads me to my weight. On one hand, I would like to just accept that all of us are different sizes and like myself the way I am. I'm tired of seeing pictures of anorexic models and comparing myself to them. (Oh you know that you do that too.) On the other hand, I weigh in excess of the range that is determined to be healthy by a bunch of doctors and I have borderline high cholesterol. I can't help thinking that if I lose some weight that I will feel more energetic and maybe live a longer, active life.
So here's the problem: Every time I think about losing weight I hit a wall, a mental wall. According to the more successful weight losers - like Weight Watchers, Jenny Craig, & Nutrisystem, for my height and build, I need to eat 1200 calories and exercise 30 minutes a day to lose weight. I can't seem to wrap my head around those numbers, but if I can somehow change my mind, maybe those numbers will be easier to achieve. I think those numbers are impossible and as long as I think that they will be -- how do I change my mind? How do I deal with the physical and emotional discomfort? I want to believe that all my body needs to be healthy and satisfied is 1200 calories, but I'm not there -- How do I get there? That's all I want to know.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Ready for Something Different
I don't think I will ever take good health for granted again. I'm so ready to go back to one doctor and two dentist visits a year. I'm getting ready for my next oral surgery, and I hope this implant will be a keeper. My bicycle accident was over a year ago, and I never thought I would still be working on replacing the teeth I lost. Losing my front teeth has really shaken up my psyche. I just don't recognize the old lady in the mirror.
I'm just so ready to move on from this accident. I guess I have more to learn from it -- that's why it is hanging around. I recently completed the bible study by Beth Moore, called Breaking Free. It really changed how I think and feel about God. I don't want to lose the peace I have found. I'm glad that I have that peace because our world has been shaken:
My mom was diagnosed with secondary leukemia. This is her second bout with cancer and this time it just feels so much more life threatening. Some days I am so overwhelmed with worry about all the things I really have no control over. That's when it is time to pull out my list of what I know to be true. I do think that the Truth does set you free. It is amazing to me how many ways you can apply the principles of truth and grace. -- I think that is another post.
So I guess I'm ready for something besides medical issues, but I don't see that happening in the next 6 months so I'm just looking to learn whatever I can, hopefully with humility. I keep waiting for a different season to start -- kind of like waiting for Spring, but instead, I think I'm going to have to make time for something different. I still not sure how that is going to happen.
I'm just so ready to move on from this accident. I guess I have more to learn from it -- that's why it is hanging around. I recently completed the bible study by Beth Moore, called Breaking Free. It really changed how I think and feel about God. I don't want to lose the peace I have found. I'm glad that I have that peace because our world has been shaken:
My mom was diagnosed with secondary leukemia. This is her second bout with cancer and this time it just feels so much more life threatening. Some days I am so overwhelmed with worry about all the things I really have no control over. That's when it is time to pull out my list of what I know to be true. I do think that the Truth does set you free. It is amazing to me how many ways you can apply the principles of truth and grace. -- I think that is another post.
So I guess I'm ready for something besides medical issues, but I don't see that happening in the next 6 months so I'm just looking to learn whatever I can, hopefully with humility. I keep waiting for a different season to start -- kind of like waiting for Spring, but instead, I think I'm going to have to make time for something different. I still not sure how that is going to happen.
Friday, January 1, 2010
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
Today starts a new year and a new decade. Looking back, this has been a very eventful decade: I've had 2 children who are happy and healthy. My mother has fought off cancer and I've moved 4 times. This past year has been particularly rough for me. It started with repeated sinus infections and just as I was recovering, I had a bicycle accident that has resulted in 3 surgical procedures, and several months of occupational therapy.
I'm ready for a new year: A year of health and healing. I don't know how I feel about making any resolutions. I really just want to feel healthy and whole.
I'm ready for a new year: A year of health and healing. I don't know how I feel about making any resolutions. I really just want to feel healthy and whole.
Friday, August 28, 2009
Getting Ready for School
School starts on Monday, and I think that we are ready! The kids are bored and I'm out of ideas. C will be starting kindergarten, and he's not so sure that he'll really wants to go. G just wants to see all of her friends again. Her good friend from Girl Scouts will be in her class, and she really wants to be able to sit next to her.
I have mixed feelings about the whole thing. I welcome getting into a routine again. I can't wait to have a few hours every morning to think, work, plan, scheme, design, knit, drive, and whatever else I can think of doing. For the first couple of months, I will be spending some of my time with doctor's visits, and recovering from surgery. I have already started my exercise plan so I hope the peaceful mornings will make it easier. On the other hand, my baby is going to kindergarten, and it is the beginning of a new stage in my life. I really am ready for a new stage, but I'm a little scared. Will I find myself again? Do I have what it takes? I think the bicycle accident has wakened fears and worries about myself. I hope the healing process also heals those fears.
Last year at this time, we moved which was followed by a season of one infection after another, and then the bicycle accident. I'm healing from the bicycle accident and in treatment for allergies which could have indirectly helped the infections. I'm really looking forward to a more peaceful year. I hope I'm not expecting too much.
I have mixed feelings about the whole thing. I welcome getting into a routine again. I can't wait to have a few hours every morning to think, work, plan, scheme, design, knit, drive, and whatever else I can think of doing. For the first couple of months, I will be spending some of my time with doctor's visits, and recovering from surgery. I have already started my exercise plan so I hope the peaceful mornings will make it easier. On the other hand, my baby is going to kindergarten, and it is the beginning of a new stage in my life. I really am ready for a new stage, but I'm a little scared. Will I find myself again? Do I have what it takes? I think the bicycle accident has wakened fears and worries about myself. I hope the healing process also heals those fears.
Last year at this time, we moved which was followed by a season of one infection after another, and then the bicycle accident. I'm healing from the bicycle accident and in treatment for allergies which could have indirectly helped the infections. I'm really looking forward to a more peaceful year. I hope I'm not expecting too much.
Monday, August 24, 2009
101 Things to Do in 1001 Days Redux
Back in November of 2007, I started a 101 Things to Do in 1001 Days. It really helped me to focus my efforts to my desires. Well, this past year has been really rough in more than one way, and I've decided to start over. Instead of having lots of items where I have to count how many times I do something. I've restructured the list so I just mark off an item when I reach a benchmark. I hope this is easier to keep track of while still focusing my efforts to my desires. Oh the places we will go ...
101 Things to Do in 1001 Days
Start Date: August 9, 2009
End Date: May 7, 2012
Exercise / Health
1.Find exercise that I actually enjoy.
2.Get caught up on kid's dental visits. IP
3.Get a mammogram.
4.Lower my cholesterol.
5.Take care of my mouth and teeth – Heal from surgery.
6.Do 10 full push ups without stopping.
7.Do 20 full push ups without stopping.
8.Do 50 sit-ups.
9.Do 100 sit-ups.
10.Walk 3 miles.
11.Finish 90 days of vitamin packets.
12.Lose 15 pounds.
13.Lose 20 pounds.
14.Lose 25 pounds.
15.Get a Yellow Karate Belt.
16.Take a Yoga class. (6 weeks).
17.Buy a new bicycle and helmet.
18.Bicycle for 7 miles.
19.Bicycle for 15 miles.
20.Improve my sleep habits – Make going to bed by 10:30 a habit.
Spiritual
21.Read A Purpose Driven Life.
22.Read Margin.
23.Finish Breaking Free. IP
24.Complete John Bible study.
25.Memorize Ephesians 6:10-18.
26.Do another Beth Moore bible study.
27.Go to a Women's Retreat.
28.Join a community group or small bible study.
Travel
29.Get a passport. IP
30.Use passport.
31.Go to Disney World.
32.Have a girls' spa weekend.
33.Visit lollipop museum with kids.
Relationships
34.Make a new friend.
35.Invite another family over for lunch or dinner.
36.Go out or host a girls' night out.
37.Host a craft night.
38.Make a list of 25 things I love about my life.
39.Watch a sunset with my loved ones.
40.Watch a sunrise with my loved ones.
41.Sit outside and just enjoy creation and my loved ones.
42.Learn how to dance with hubby.
43.Develop a list of good babysitters.
44.Listen to hubby in a long conversation without interrupting.
45.Teach G how to ride bike without training wheels.
46.Teach both kids bike safety.
47.Read Raising Great Kids.
48.Find a service project for the whole family.
49.Make 2 Operation Child Christmas boxes.
50.Send someone who needs it a care package.
51.Host a board game night.
52.Go stargazing with the kids.
Food
53.Find the perfect recipe for frozen key lime pie. IP
54.Make sourdough bread.
55.Make a monthly menu of my family's healthy favorites.
56.Reduce my grocery spending by $200 a month.
Household Management
57.Decorate Master bedroom and bath.
58.Paint & Decorate G's room.
59.Get Van new front bumper.
60.Buy a front-loading washer & dryer.
61.Buy a freezer.
62.Make a raised bed kitchen garden.
63.Grow something new in the garden.
64.Figure out how to compost.
65.Plant at least 1 tree in our yard, and make a flower bed around it.
66.Organize photos and complete 1 scrapbook.
67.Make a photo wall of meaningful photos.
Crafts
68.Make 33 items for charity (0/33).
69.Finish Crocheted Hexagon Blanket. IP
70.Knit Monkey socks.
71.Knit a red cardigan. IP
72.Knit a white cardigan.
73.Knit a purple cardigan.
74.Knit pullover sweater.
75.Knit Sipalu bag
76.Finish Tilly shawl. IP
77.Make a set of placemats.
78.Knit rust tank. IP
79.Make an idea board.
80.Design a knitted or crocheted garment.
Work
81.Find a part-time job that I enjoy.
82.Write my 300th blog post.
83.Sell something on the internet.
Just for Fun
84.Try 10 new restaurants. (0/10)
85.Finish State Quarter Books. IP
86.Finish my Soduku Book. IP
87.Finish Word Find book. IP
88.Go camping.
89.Get a pedicure after loosing 15 pounds.
90.Get a full body massage after loosing 20 pounds.
91.See 10 movies in a movie theater. (0/10)
Financial
92.Open savings accounts for kids. Completed 08/09
93.Finish Financial Peace University.
94.Move AEP 401 K to Fidelity.
95.Learn about retirement investing
96.Understand where we stand for our retirement.
97.Decide on becoming a personal financial counselor.
98.Clean out office files.
99.Put important docs into fireproof security box.
100.Pay off Camaro.
101.Build up 3-6 mos. Savings.
101 Things to Do in 1001 Days
Start Date: August 9, 2009
End Date: May 7, 2012
Exercise / Health
1.Find exercise that I actually enjoy.
2.Get caught up on kid's dental visits. IP
3.Get a mammogram.
4.Lower my cholesterol.
5.Take care of my mouth and teeth – Heal from surgery.
6.Do 10 full push ups without stopping.
7.Do 20 full push ups without stopping.
8.Do 50 sit-ups.
9.Do 100 sit-ups.
10.Walk 3 miles.
11.Finish 90 days of vitamin packets.
12.Lose 15 pounds.
13.Lose 20 pounds.
14.Lose 25 pounds.
15.Get a Yellow Karate Belt.
16.Take a Yoga class. (6 weeks).
17.Buy a new bicycle and helmet.
18.Bicycle for 7 miles.
19.Bicycle for 15 miles.
20.Improve my sleep habits – Make going to bed by 10:30 a habit.
Spiritual
21.Read A Purpose Driven Life.
22.Read Margin.
23.Finish Breaking Free. IP
24.Complete John Bible study.
25.Memorize Ephesians 6:10-18.
26.Do another Beth Moore bible study.
27.Go to a Women's Retreat.
28.Join a community group or small bible study.
Travel
29.Get a passport. IP
30.Use passport.
31.Go to Disney World.
32.Have a girls' spa weekend.
33.Visit lollipop museum with kids.
Relationships
34.Make a new friend.
35.Invite another family over for lunch or dinner.
36.Go out or host a girls' night out.
37.Host a craft night.
38.Make a list of 25 things I love about my life.
39.Watch a sunset with my loved ones.
40.Watch a sunrise with my loved ones.
41.Sit outside and just enjoy creation and my loved ones.
42.Learn how to dance with hubby.
43.Develop a list of good babysitters.
44.Listen to hubby in a long conversation without interrupting.
45.Teach G how to ride bike without training wheels.
46.Teach both kids bike safety.
47.Read Raising Great Kids.
48.Find a service project for the whole family.
49.Make 2 Operation Child Christmas boxes.
50.Send someone who needs it a care package.
51.Host a board game night.
52.Go stargazing with the kids.
Food
53.Find the perfect recipe for frozen key lime pie. IP
54.Make sourdough bread.
55.Make a monthly menu of my family's healthy favorites.
56.Reduce my grocery spending by $200 a month.
Household Management
57.Decorate Master bedroom and bath.
58.Paint & Decorate G's room.
59.Get Van new front bumper.
60.Buy a front-loading washer & dryer.
61.Buy a freezer.
62.Make a raised bed kitchen garden.
63.Grow something new in the garden.
64.Figure out how to compost.
65.Plant at least 1 tree in our yard, and make a flower bed around it.
66.Organize photos and complete 1 scrapbook.
67.Make a photo wall of meaningful photos.
Crafts
68.Make 33 items for charity (0/33).
69.Finish Crocheted Hexagon Blanket. IP
70.Knit Monkey socks.
71.Knit a red cardigan. IP
72.Knit a white cardigan.
73.Knit a purple cardigan.
74.Knit pullover sweater.
75.Knit Sipalu bag
76.Finish Tilly shawl. IP
77.Make a set of placemats.
78.Knit rust tank. IP
79.Make an idea board.
80.Design a knitted or crocheted garment.
Work
81.Find a part-time job that I enjoy.
82.Write my 300th blog post.
83.Sell something on the internet.
Just for Fun
84.Try 10 new restaurants. (0/10)
85.Finish State Quarter Books. IP
86.Finish my Soduku Book. IP
87.Finish Word Find book. IP
88.Go camping.
89.Get a pedicure after loosing 15 pounds.
90.Get a full body massage after loosing 20 pounds.
91.See 10 movies in a movie theater. (0/10)
Financial
92.Open savings accounts for kids. Completed 08/09
93.Finish Financial Peace University.
94.Move AEP 401 K to Fidelity.
95.Learn about retirement investing
96.Understand where we stand for our retirement.
97.Decide on becoming a personal financial counselor.
98.Clean out office files.
99.Put important docs into fireproof security box.
100.Pay off Camaro.
101.Build up 3-6 mos. Savings.
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